tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2006844100493488352024-02-20T00:04:05.156-08:00Missionary MusingsThoughts, ideas, and comments on life from two missionaries in Africa.Jonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00067692361302930474noreply@blogger.comBlogger15125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-200684410049348835.post-69750063265238786542014-11-21T14:08:00.000-08:002014-11-21T14:08:37.616-08:00Benefits of being a Mazungo<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I guess being a “Mazungo” (foreigner) has its perks. Yes, I stick out
like a sore thumb. Yes, that sometimes means that merchants try to rip me off.
But this week I had two encounters that made me glad I stand out.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">After a women’s prayer time at church, Janie and I went shopping at the mall. And by "mall", I mean a ginormous, labyrinthine market with muddy paths and stalls made of bamboo covered in plastic for shade, where you could buy anything from hardware
to baby clothes and literally everything in between. I bought some cups and a few Goodwill-reject t-shirts to turn into rags (if you ever wondered what happened to thrift store clothes that don't sell, now you know. They come here by the container load to be sold in piles at the "malls" around Africa).<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">After we found our goods and emerged from the "mall", a lady approached me. She
was quite thin and her dress was dirty. “Please help me,” she said in a voice
so quiet I could barely hear her above the traffic and hubbub of the market. I
almost missed that she was talking to me. “Please, could you spare 10 mets so I
could get something to eat?” (about 30 cents). Her face was so downcast, and my
heart was moved. I asked what her name was, and her eyes brightened a bit that
I cared enough to ask. “Dina” was the quiet reply. I told her God loved her,
and gave her 20 mets. She smiled. I don’t know why I found it so hard to give
last time we were here. It’s so easy to be generous above and beyond what
people even ask. Seriously, I could make someone’s day with 60 cents. But it
was because I look different that she came up to me. Because so many of the Mazungos are missionaries, she saw me as someone to go to for help. I’m so
glad God has fixed my heart that I have compassion for the people who view me
that way now, rather than getting frustrated at the constant requests. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">After leaving the market we wound our way to the bus stop
and climbed into a chappa that was still relatively empty, so we went all the
way to the back seat and I squeezed in next to a man who was sitting in the
corner. He immediately struck up a
conversation with me that went something like this (in Portuguese, and </span><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I later asked his name, so I’ll use it here</span><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">):</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Sergio: Good afternoon! Everything good with you?<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Me: Yes! Everything’s good. And you?<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Sergio: Wow, you speak good Portuguese, (then we talked
about language learning for a while). So, what are you here for? Do you work
for a business here?<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Me: No, I work with the Peniel church, do you know it?<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Sergio: Oh, you’re a missionary! Is that the one with Pastor
Mario? Yes, I do know it! Man, I need to get to church sometime. My life has
lots of problems. I need God. When are the services?<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Me: Sunday at 9:00 and 6:00, and Wednesday and Friday nights
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Sergio: I’m going! I’m going this week! I need God. Do you
have a Bible you could give me? I need the Word of God in my life.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Unfortunately I did not have a Portuguese Bible I could give
him, so I made a mental note to try to find some and stockpile for the future.
But seriously. Just by sitting next to him he got convicted and preached to
himself about how much he needed God in his life. Needed no convincing. Needed
nothing on my part but to know when to show up. I wonder if I’ll see him there
next week. I was so involved in my conversation with him that I didn't notice
when we arrived at our bus stop, but fortunately Janie saw it and we managed to
get home. Jesus called us to be fishers of men, and it felt like the fish
were jumping into the boat with no effort on my part!<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Standing out can be annoying sometimes, but this time it was a
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Carlahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08702744196506375883noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-200684410049348835.post-28166942049184391572014-11-19T13:58:00.001-08:002014-11-19T13:58:59.230-08:00A Second Chance<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Well, now that we're missionaries again, I guess it's time to pull this forgotten blog down from the virtual shelf, blow off the dust, and start writing again! I'll start with a song that has been close to my heart these past few months:</span></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">My future hangs on this You make
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<i><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Please don't stop creating me<o:p></o:p></span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Your blood offers the chance to
rewind to innocence; <o:p></o:p></span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Reborn, perfect as a child.<o:p></o:p></span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Oh, Your cross, it changes everything, <o:p></o:p></span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">There my world begins again with You.<o:p></o:p></span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Oh, Your cross, it's where my hope restarts,<o:p></o:p></span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">A second chance is Heaven's heart.<o:p></o:p></span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">When sin and ugliness collide
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<i><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Beauty awakens by romance.<o:p></o:p></span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Always, inside this mess, I have
found forgiveness, <o:p></o:p></span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Mercy, as infinite as You.<o:p></o:p></span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Countless second chances we've
been given at the cross<o:p></o:p></span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Fragments of brokenness salvaged
by the art of grace, <o:p></o:p></span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">You craft life from our mistakes<o:p></o:p></span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Black skies of my regrets
outshone by this kindness; <o:p></o:p></span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">New life dawns over my soul.<o:p></o:p></span></i></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I’m finding myself meditating on and reveling in the idea of <i>a second chance</i>. I’ll be honest: our
first time in Mozambique was not pretty. I allowed myself to grow bitter,
hard-hearted, far from God, depressed, frustrated, angry, and unforgiving.
Those characterized my life far more than love, joy, peace, patience, kindness,
goodness, gentleness, faithfulness, and self-control did. I lived a pretty
miserable life, counting down the days until I could jump on an airplane and
escape this personal hell called “Mozambique”. When I finally boarded that
plane in 2011, I didn’t plan on returning. Ever. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Yet here I am. Typing this while listening to African rap music booming
from the street below, sitting in a wicker chair in an apartment on the fourth
story of an old Portuguese apartment building, in Beira. Mozambique. Back where
I said I’d never go again. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Funny how God works, isn’t it?<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">It took three years of Him working on my heart, healing the wounds that
had been inflicted and encouraging me to forgive, forgive, and forgive some
more. Seventy times seven times. I also spent a lot of time asking for
forgiveness. Over time I grew to regret most the decisions I had made during
those years. I regretted all the times I had snubbed, turned away, distrusted,
rejected, and failed to love the people I was supposed to be serving. Jesus had
come to me as the “least of these”, and I had turned Him away. Over, and over,
and over again. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I’m not really sure why, but I grew up with an intense fear of failure.
My parents were not harsh task masters (by any means!), yet I always hated the
idea of letting them—or anyone else—down. I hated making mistakes, every time
it felt like I had failed again. I definitely feel like our first time in
Mozambique was one huge failure. As Paul said, “If I could speak all the
languages of earth and of angels, but didn’t LOVE others, I would only be a
noisy gong or a clanging cymbal. If I had the gift of prophecy, and if I
understood all of God’s secret plans and possessed all knowledge, and if I had
such faith that I could move mountains, but didn’t LOVE others, I would be <u>nothing</u>.
If I gave everything I have to the poor and even sacrificed my body, I could
boast about it, but if I didn’t LOVE others, I would have gained <u>nothing</u>”
(1 Cor 13:1-3). I failed to love. Therefore, I failed. Period. I was, in Paul’s
words, “nothing”.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">When sin and ugliness collide
with redemption's kiss, <o:p></o:p></span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Beauty awakens by romance.<o:p></o:p></span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Always, inside this mess, I have
found forgiveness, <o:p></o:p></span></i></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>Mercy, as infinite as You.</i><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I fell prey to the patterns around me to marginalize the poor. Other
rich people would just walk by and ignore them, so I did the same. I’m ashamed
to say I even came to view their deaths with apathy. Oh, just another African.
They often treated me like I was somehow superior, just because of my skin
color, and I returned the favor by treating them like inferiors. Now I am so
ashamed of how I acted, thought, spoke, and behaved. I was the priest and the
Levite who looked away and crossed by on the other side of the road while the
robbed man lay bleeding in the ditch. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">All the while, I thought I still wanted to “do missions”. I grew up in
a missions-minded family, I’ve wanted to be a missionary as long as I can
remember, and my first few short-term forays only confirmed that desire and
calling in me. Our first time in Mozambique was nothing like what I wanted from
“missions”, but I knew I still wanted to do “missions”, I just decided that
since it was so hard here that maybe this wasn’t where I was supposed to be.
God, please call me elsewhere, I prayed. Anywhere but here. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I even went so far as to look for other opportunities, other mission
organizations in other countries. Yet nothing “clicked” until a certain pastor
invited us to come and work with him. In Mozambique.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">In all the spiritual desert of our first few years, the brief visits to
Peniel Worship Center were an oasis for my soul. After pouring out and pouring
out until I was beyond dry and empty, it was the only place I felt genuinely
refilled. Where I could connect with God. Where I could sense that maybe all
this was worth it after all. Those visits were too few and too far between for
my liking, I wished we could just join Peniel full-time. So when the pastor of
Peniel asked us if we would consider helping him with a project on his heart,
it was one of the only invitations that I could fathom accepting after how
burned I was the first time. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">So here I am. Graciously being offered a second chance. Even me. Over
the past few months, God has taken me on a journey into His heart. I asked Him
to show me Himself, and He told me to look to the poor. I am still working
through an in-depth study on the poor in the Bible, and God has brought me
face-to-face with His upside-down Kingdom, kind of like an upside-down pyramid.
Where the rich and famous are at the bottom, almost worthless in His sight, and
the poor and rejected are at the top, and the apple of His eye. He loves them.
Oh, how He loves them. I felt Him say to me that if I wanted to get to know Him
more, I would have to get to know the poor more. His heart is inexorably bound
to them. He catches their tears in a bottle. He counts every one of the curly hairs
on their heads. If He looks after the sparrows, how much more does He care
about these precious people. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Oh, Your cross, it changes
everything, <o:p></o:p></span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">There my world begins again with
You.<o:p></o:p></span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Oh, Your cross, it's where my
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>A second chance is Heaven's
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">At Calvary all my failings, all my sins of commission and omission, were nailed to the cross that changes everything. Jesus' blood came like a giant eraser to my ugly page, giving me a clean and fresh start. A second chance. A new hope.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">For some reason, God hasn't given up on me. He wants these people to
know how much He loves them, and He has given me another opportunity to tell them
of that love. Right in the exact same place where I failed before, He has sent
me again to succeed. I don’t think it would have been the same if we had gone
anywhere else, I wouldn't feel like that time of failure would have been
redeemed quite as powerfully as it will be through the ability to serve the
same people in the same place. This time I’m finding a deep love for these
people that I never had before, and it makes all the difference.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Fragments of brokenness salvaged
by the art of grace, <o:p></o:p></span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">You craft life from our mistakes<o:p></o:p></span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Black skies of my regrets
outshone by this kindness; <o:p></o:p></span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">New life dawns over my soul.<o:p></o:p></span></i></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">What are the areas of your life where you could use a second chance?
Are there any past dreams, visions, or missions that you've had that ended in failure
where you would like to see future success? I’d encourage you to pray for the
opportunity to set something right that went terribly wrong before. It is truly
liberating.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Countless second chances we've
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Carlahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08702744196506375883noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-200684410049348835.post-19584393460973873892010-10-23T14:08:00.000-07:002010-10-23T14:46:29.058-07:00Some stories just need to be told<![endif]--> <p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" class="MsoNormal">Last year we struck up a friendship with one of the Bible school teachers, Abel. He spoke English, so that was quite helpful in our first months of struggling to master Portuguese. </p> <p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" class="MsoNormal"><o:p> </o:p></p> <p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" class="MsoNormal">Abel grew up as a pastor’s kid, and as a young adult attended a Bible school run by Teen Missions. He stayed on there to become a leader and teacher in the same course where he had been a student. There was a local girl, Judite, who caught his eye, and though she was young he asked her to wait for him, and she agreed. Later on he had the opportunity to go to the USA, where he traveled around and preached at different churches all over the country. He kept writing and calling that special girl in Mozambique, and their relationship blossomed. When he got back to his homeland he married her. </p> <p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" class="MsoNormal"><o:p> </o:p></p> <p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" class="MsoNormal">Their first child was a little girl, but she was born very prematurely and only lived a couple days. Abel and Judite were heartbroken, and doctors told them they shouldn’t have any more children because Judite’s health was so poor and she was very weak. They refused to take that for an answer, and prayed fervently for another child, and a while later she discovered she was pregnant again. Doctors warned her that she needed to stay on complete bed rest the entire pregnancy to give her and this baby a better chance of living, so that’s what she did, with Abel waiting on her hand and foot. He cooked, he cleaned, he did all of his work and hers too (and Mozambican women work HARD!). When family and friends offered to help him, he refused, saying that it was a joy and not a burden to serve his wife like that, and that it was his expression of love to her. Their baby boy, Bethel, was born healthy and strong, and Abel decided to raise him like a Biblical Nazarite, keeping him set apart for the Lord. He never cut Bethel’s hair, but decided that at age 7 he would let the boy decide for himself if he wanted to continue in the Nazarite way. </p> <p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" class="MsoNormal"><o:p> </o:p></p> <p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" class="MsoNormal">At one point their relationship faltered, and Judite left for a while. When she came back to Abel, she had AIDS, but he still welcomed her back with open arms and heart. Shortly after that, they began taking in orphans and children in need, caring for them and becoming family for those who had lost theirs. Abel made minimum wage working as a Bible school teacher at the Iris base, but still managed to make ends meet for their growing family, which eventually included 25 orphans in addition to their precious Bethel. For many Mozambicans, when they take in orphans they treat them like slaves, forcing them to work hard and not letting them go to school or play, but Abel and Judite were a true father and mother to all the children they took in.</p> <p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" class="MsoNormal"><o:p> </o:p></p> <p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" class="MsoNormal">That was how things were when we met him in January 2009. In March, the leaders of the base suddenly left and we were found put in their place, and since we knew we were inexperienced we really wanted help and counsel. We asked Abel to be co-director with us; as a Mozambican he knew the language and culture better than us, as an older man (well, older than us anyway) he commanded more respect, and we were very blessed through our partnership. Over the rest of the year, we spent many, many hours with Abel, resolving worker disputes, meeting with government officials, praying about direction for the base, fellowshipping over pizza (Abel’s favorite food from his time in the States), laughing together over ridiculous situations, crying together when his mother passed away, and enjoying a close friendship. </p> <p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" class="MsoNormal"><o:p> </o:p></p> <p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" class="MsoNormal">Shortly before we left for the States to have our baby, we found out Judite was pregnant again too. I shared some of my prenatal vitamins with her, knowing her health needed all the help it could get. I looked forward to coming back to Mozambique and having our two little children grow up together as best friends. I crocheted a baby blanket for her while we were on our long road trips. I bought her some nice cloth diapers. </p> <p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" class="MsoNormal"><o:p> </o:p></p> <p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" class="MsoNormal">We were heartbroken to find out that just before it was time for us to return to Mozambique, Abel had been asked to leave Iris. There were many horrible accusations made against him, and the leaders over us decided he needed to go. Our base had a nasty history of leaders being taken out by lies and false rumors spread to damage good people’s reputations out of jealousy, so we’ll never know this side of heaven if what was said about him was true or not. Regardless, he was gone from our lives just like that. I never saw Abel or Judite after we got back to Mozambique. I never got to see their new baby girl, Marvelous, who was born right before we returned. I never got to give her the gifts I had brought.</p> <p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" class="MsoNormal"><o:p> </o:p></p> <p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" class="MsoNormal">After giving birth to Marvelous, Judite had bad hemorrhaging that continued for months. She grew weaker and weaker, and though we never saw them we occasionally heard updates on how she was doing. The last thing we heard was that she was in the hospital, but seemed to be improving after receiving a blood transfusion.</p> <p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" class="MsoNormal"><o:p> </o:p></p> <p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" class="MsoNormal">We just got the news that Judite died today. There are no words to describe the sadness, regret, and frustration that brings… I wish I had spent more time with her last year, we saw Abel every day but I should have made more effort to go to their house and spend time with Judite. I wish I could have seen them this year without causing a scandal on the base since nearly everyone here believed (or started) the bad rumors about Abel. I wish I could have been there for her when she was growing weaker, I wish I could have helped her in some way. </p> <p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" class="MsoNormal"><o:p> </o:p></p> <p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" class="MsoNormal">Life is so fragile, especially here. Thousands, millions, of people die in Africa every day, and no one in the rest of the world knows. I just felt like Judite’s story needed to be told. She was an amazing woman of God, soft-spoken and gentle, shy but generous.</p> <p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" class="MsoNormal"><o:p> </o:p></p> <p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" class="MsoNormal">I know there aren’t supposed to be tears in heaven, but I think I’ll have some in my eyes when I give her a hug when I get to see her there.</p>Carlahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08702744196506375883noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-200684410049348835.post-62394026681274793762010-09-07T11:54:00.001-07:002010-09-07T11:56:44.516-07:00Just like a waving flag…<span xmlns=""><p>This song was written by an artist from Somalia, and it does such a poignant job of expressing the sad histories of almost all African nations: <a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_5Th7UH1-rU">http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_5Th7UH1-rU</a><br /> </p><p><em>When I get older, they'll call me freedom<br />Just like a Waving Flag.<br /><br />[Chorus]<br />When I get older, I will be stronger,<br />They'll call me freedom, just like a Waving Flag,<br />And then it goes back (3X)<br /></em></p><p><em><br />Born to a throne, stronger than Rome<br />But violent prone, poor people zone,<br />But it's my home, all I have known,<br />Where I got grown, streets we would roam.<br />But out of the darkness, I came the farthest,<br />Among the hardest survival.<br />Learn from these streets, it can be bleak,<br />Accept no defeat, surrender retreat,<br /><br />So we struggling, fighting to eat and<br />We're wondering when we'll be free,<br />So we patiently wait, for that fateful day,<br />It's not far away, so for now we say<br /><br />[Chorus]<br />When I get older, I will be stronger,<br />They'll call me freedom, just like a Waving Flag,<br />And then it goes back (3X)<br /><br />So many wars, settling scores,<br />Bringing us promises, leaving us poor,<br />I heard them say, love is the way,<br />Love is the answer, that's what they say,<br />But look how they treat us, Make us believers,<br />We fight their battles, then they deceive us,<br />Try to control us, they couldn't hold us,<br />Cause we just move forward like Buffalo Soldiers.<br /></em></p><p><br /> <em>So we struggling, fighting to eat and<br />We're wondering when we'll be free,<br />So we patiently wait, for that fateful day,<br />It's not far away, so for now we say<br /><br /> </em></p><p>It is such a sad but honest cry to the corrupt governments and outsiders that have stripped a continent that is so rich in resources to be the poorest area of the planet. Wars, colonization, slavery, selfishness, and corruption have touched and damaged nearly every country in Africa. However, this song was rewritten this year to be the anthem of the Soccer World Cup, which was held in South Africa just next door to us, and the lyrics to THAT version go as follows: <a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CBD9h0jUq3w&feature=related">http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CBD9h0jUq3w&feature=related</a><br /> </p><p><br /> <em>Give me freedom, give me fire, give me reason, take me higher<br />See the champions, take the field now, you define us, make us feel proud<br />In the streets our heads are lifting, as we lose our inhibition,<br />Celebration, it surrounds us, every nation, all around us<br /></em></p><p><em>Singing forever young, singing songs underneath that sun<br />Lets rejoice in the beautiful game,<br />And together at the end of the day.<br /></em></p><p><em>We all say<br /></em></p><p><em>When I get older I will be stronger<br />They'll call me freedom, just like a wavin' flag<br />And then it goes back (3X)<br /></em></p><p><br />Since soccer is such a popular sport here, and since the song is quite catchy, our boys on the center were constantly singing it. I noticed when I let the kids borrow my guitar they had learned how to play it. While it isn't a <em>bad</em> song, it still made me a little sad because before this the only music they ever played was worship and Christian music, and now they were all gathering around the guitar to sing this soccer song together. So, since it <em>does</em> have such a catchy tune, I rewrote the lyrics to be my own Christian parody (more a parody of the soccer version than the original, and sorry, no YouTube link for it):<br /></p><p><br /><em>You're my freedom, You're my fire, Take me Jesus, take me higher<br /></em></p><p><em>You're the champion of the battle, You refine us, make us pure gold<br /></em></p><p><em>In the streets we live Your mission, bring Your hope to all the children<br /></em></p><p><em>Adoration, it surrounds us, Every nation and tongue will join us<br /></em></p><p><br /> </p><p><em>Singing around the throne, singing worship to You alone<br /></em></p><p><em>Lets rejoice that You came to save<br /></em></p><p><em>And together give You praise<br /></em></p><p><br /> </p><p><em>We all sing<br /></em></p><p><br /> </p><p><em>When I am weaker, You will be stronger<br /></em></p><p><em>Love is Your banner over us like a flag<br /></em></p><p><em>Until You come back (3X)<br /></em></p><p> </p><p>I just taught it to the boys today, and you should have seen their faces! Their grins were so big, that they could take this song they loved and now praise God with it! They laughed and were eager to learn it, so I printed out several copies for them. Hopefully soon I'll be hearing it often around the base :-).</p></span>Carlahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08702744196506375883noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-200684410049348835.post-25757229733534746322010-08-15T11:44:00.001-07:002010-08-15T11:59:24.915-07:00Faithful<span xmlns=""><p>If You came back today<br /></p><p>Would You find me faithful with all that You gave me to do?<br /></p><p>How did I live day to day?<br /></p><p>Did the talents You gave me bring glory to You?<br /></p><p><br /> </p><p>Did I learn how to love the unlovely?<br /></p><p>Did I stop to help a stranger in need?<br /></p><p>Did I put others first, lay down my pride?<br /></p><p>Did I give myself completely?<br /></p><p><br /> </p><p>I want to be found faithful<br /></p><p>I want to hear You say, "My servant, well done"<br /></p><p>I want to be found faithful<br /></p><p>I want to see more of Your Kingdom come<br /></p></span>Carlahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08702744196506375883noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-200684410049348835.post-1798898712841365732010-08-02T03:02:00.001-07:002010-08-02T03:03:55.151-07:00Tenderhearted<span xmlns=""><p><strong>Ephesians 4:31a-32</strong><br />Get rid of all bitterness… Instead, be kind to each other, <strong style="font-style: italic;">tenderhearted</strong>, forgiving one another, just as God through Christ has forgiven you.<br /></p><p><strong>Philippians 2:1, 3b, 5</strong><br />Is there any encouragement from belonging to Christ? Any comfort from his love? Any fellowship together in the Spirit? Are your hearts <strong style="font-style: italic;">tender</strong><span style="font-style: italic;"> </span>and compassionate?... Be humble, thinking of others as better than yourselves… You must have the same attitude that Christ Jesus had.<br /></p><p><strong>Colossians 3:12-13</strong><br />Since God chose you to be the holy people he loves, you must clothe yourselves with <strong style="font-style: italic;">tenderhearted</strong><span style="font-style: italic;"> </span>mercy, kindness, humility, gentleness, and patience. Make allowance for each other's faults, and forgive anyone who offends you. Remember, the Lord forgave you, so you must forgive others.<br /></p><p><strong>1 Peter 3:8</strong><br />Finally, all of you should be of one mind. Sympathize with each other. Love each other as brothers and sisters. Be <strong style="font-style: italic;">tenderhearted</strong>, and keep a humble attitude.<br /></p><p>God has been prompting me lately to keep a tender heart. You wouldn't believe how hard that can be. It's so easy to get hardened, calloused, bitter, and angry. Here's an example:<br /></p><p>Just the other day one of our workers came to the door asking Jon if we could "loan" him some money for his wife's school fees. I instantly shut down on the inside; last year we gave out hundreds of dollars in "loans," and only one person—one—ever paid us back. One Mozambican even advised us, "Don't give loans. Either give a gift or don't, but certainly don't expect anything to come back." Many of the people we "loaned" money to, we never even saw again after the "loan," and even if we did see them they never once considered paying us back. We're white, white people don't need their money back because they have an endless supply, so they think. I also grew bitter about using our personal money to give "loans" to the workers, because they already receive <em>so</em> much more in their salaries than most other people live on and they are allowed to get loans from the ministry. They are automatically upper-middle class citizens by having a minimum-wage job, because minimum wage is so high—they receive in about two months what most other people make in a year. This particular worker doesn't even have to pay for housing, because of a fluke of situation we bought him a nice house last year and he doesn't have to pay rent or anything (long story). I thought there was no way he could possibly need money above and beyond his salary for his wife's school fees, and I knew that what most people do is as soon as they receive their salary they'll spend it on nice clothes, cell phones, TVs, and other nonessential items, so that they can honestly go begging from the missionaries that they don't have any food in their houses and their families are starving, or in this case a deadline has come up for school fees, and all their money is gone.<br /></p><p>As Jon reached for my wallet and explained it was a "loan," I muttered bitterly, "There's no such thing as a 'loan'."<br /></p><p>"He said he'll pay back next month," Jon replied with what I considered gross naivety.<br /></p><p>"You don't actually believe that, do you? They <em>always</em> say that, it <em>never</em> happens," I said.<br /></p><p>"But I have to keep hoping," he responded. Somehow Jon has managed to keep his heart tender while mine has grown hard as stone.<br /></p><p>It's not just "loans" and money, either. I've grown so hard in my view of people in general.<br /></p><p><em>They're not really worshiping God. They just like having the microphone and being in the limelight.<br /></em></p><p><em>People don't come to the conference for spiritual reasons, they're just here for the free food.<br /></em></p><p><em>The evangelism team just uses the outreaches as a chance to hang out with their girlfriends.<br /></em></p><p><em>That kid is a kleptomaniac who is never, ever going to change. He will just steal and steal and steal until he gets caught and thrown in jail or killed one of these days.<br /></em></p><p><em>Even the pastors lie and steal every opportunity they get. They only became pastors because of the lure of power and money.<br /></em></p><p>I guess if they were a perfect people, God wouldn't have called us here because they wouldn't need the gospel. Still, it's so hard to forgive, forgive, forgive, and show mercy, mercy, mercy. So hard.<br /></p><p>"How many times must I forgive my brother?" Peter asked. "Up to seven times?" I'm sure he suggested the seven thinking it was quite generous. Not just two or three times, no, let's go extravagant and forgive up to <em>seven</em> times. I can keep count up to seven, and that is a lot of times for someone to blow it and still get off scot free.<br /></p><p>"No," Jesus replied, "Seventy times seven." Four hundred ninety times. By which, of course, He meant infinitely. Who is actually going to keep count of almost five hundred offences and at the last one be able to say, "Okay, last forgiveness! After this, you're through!" One time a friend and I had a running joke for a few weeks of how many forgivenesses he had left for his random offences against me, but when I lost count he still had four hundred seventy-something to go.<br /></p><p>Three of the four verses above mention tenderheartedness together with humility, which is obviously important. Pride doesn't want to forgive. Pride wants to keep a record of wrongs done. Pride hardens the heart against a repeat offender. It is a humble person indeed who can keep forgiving over and over and over again, and keep a heart tender enough to believe the best of everyone even still. To believe that they can change. To believe that when they say they'll "never do _____ again" that it's true. To believe that <em>this</em> "loan" will come back, that he's being honest. To not let bitterness set in.<br /></p><p>I'm not there yet. I'm still struggling, fighting, daily taking up my cross to keep a tender heart, to put others first, to believe the best. Two of the verses above tell us why we should forgive: "Remember, the Lord forgave you, so you must forgive others."<br /></p><p>Boy, I'm glad God isn't keeping count of how many times He's had to forgive me. I'm sure I'm past even my four hundred ninety by now. </p></span>Carlahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08702744196506375883noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-200684410049348835.post-54815509039533549662010-06-28T21:04:00.000-07:002010-08-15T12:05:14.168-07:00Every WordSo apparently I can write poetry in my sleep.<br /><br />I just started reading a book about the civil war in Mozambique (1970's-early 1990's), and it is harrowing. It was nothing like the American civil war: two armies of soldiers, either volunteers or drafted, who meet each other in battle and fight until one side wins or surrenders. No. Here it was more like bands of raiders attacking innocent villages, raping women and girls, stealing everything of value (including all doors, windows, roofing material, electrical wiring, plumbing... everything), and killing the majority of the population and enslaving the rest to carry said stolen materials into neighboring countries to sell. The few who managed to escape would huddle in refugee camps throughout the country, dressed in tree bark since they had no clothes, usually starving and lacking clean water. Sometimes the rebel bands would even attack hospitals, killing the sick and injured, and even babies. No one was safe.<br /><br />Even in my sleep last night I was haunted by some of the stories described in the book, the ruthlessness of the attacks. In my dream I was writing a poem about how I felt, and when I woke up I could remember most of it. Here it is...<br /><br />Every Word<br /><br />as I looked out<br />I started to sing<br />it was a song I had never heard before<br />yet I knew<br />every word<br />even though it had many verses<br />and even variations in the chorus<br /><br />it was a sad song<br />played in a minor key<br /><br />if you had come and stood beside me<br />you would also start to sing<br />though you, too, had never heard the song<br />we could sing in perfect unison<br />every word<br /><br />how else but song can you describe<br />a battle with no heroes<br />where those who died—<br />were not soldiers<br />and those who lived—<br />will not live long<br /><br />looking out across the scene<br />we would stand and sing together<br />in perfect unison<br />every word<br /><br />for it is a song<br />called<br />SpeechlessCarlahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08702744196506375883noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-200684410049348835.post-30675752209037003062009-07-23T20:41:00.000-07:002009-07-24T11:54:10.262-07:00Communication, Yay!So yeah, I think I forgot what a blog was for... It's for telling people what is going on or what you are thinking, not for writing a literary symphony complete with compelling arguments and beautifully scripted imagery. It's really easy to share when amazing things are going on and God is doing things all around you. It's another when you're just trying to hang on - God hasn't spoken to you in weeks and you're just hanging on to the last thing He said... But those are important to talk about too. As such, I'll try to write more often!<div><br /></div><div>We went to Beira today, trying to get a couple things. However, even trying to get to the store is sometimes a challenge - this time it was because there is very little fuel in our area. The shortage has been happening since the beginning of the month. When we went to Malawi, we waited in line for 2.5 hours to get fuel in Tete, and even then we only got it because we were so luck and had God on our side. There was absolutely no fuel in our region yesterday, but we were able to get some just before going into town.</div><div><br /></div><div>Then came the adventure of getting cash for pay day. Today was payday, but we had no money on base. We are trying to set up bank accounts with our workers so we can pay them through the bank, but we've been trying for 4 months and are still waiting on paperwork, so until those get set up we are still paying in cash. In addition, we ran out of checks and have to wait at least 2 weeks until we can get more. We stopped by at 9:30 and they weren't open yet, so we stopped by at 10:30. We were there until 11:15 filling out forms, then we had to go exchange the US dollars from the bank into Mozambican meticais. That took until 11:50, and all the stores close at 12 until 2 for lunch. However innefficient that sounds, at least we were able to get what we needed. Jeff, one of the other missionaries that works with us, spent the entire time going from shop to shop looking for one plumbing part but could not find it... </div><div><br /></div><div>In other news, Pastor Jose (the national director) seems to have really helped our base out. He was only here for 3 days, but ever since, people are far more grateful and they complain less. Praise Jesus!</div>Jonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00067692361302930474noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-200684410049348835.post-27251520769499204212009-05-03T07:12:00.001-07:002009-05-03T07:12:21.716-07:00Hope, Faith, and Favor<span xmlns=''><p>Usually what keeps me going is having a number of moments where I stop and say, "Wow, <em>this</em> is why I am here!" Lately, however, I've been having a lot more moments where I stop and ask, "Wait, why <em>am</em> I here?" I was disheartened and discouraged with all my failings in my new roles and responsibilities. I'm finally starting to hear from God (something that has been hard my whole Christian life), but I never know it is God speaking until after I disregard what I heard, and then of course I have to suffer the consequences. Lots of stress. Frustration. Even things that used to give me joy felt like a burden. <br /></p><p>Therefore I took a day off to hide, fast, pray, and really seek God's face. Did He really call me here, to this place, to do this work? Did I miss Him on His calling for my life? I always thought I would end up being an English-teaching missionary in Asia, how on earth did I find myself in charge of an orphanage in Africa? I was filled with doubt, exactly where the enemy wanted me.<br /></p><p>Fortunately, it was an encouraging day with God. Somehow in the tears and surrender I was able to see through my hurts and into His heart. I learned three important lessons that day, about hope, faith, and favor.<br /></p><p>My Bible bookmark was in Lamentations (odd, I wasn't reading Lamentations last time…), but this whole passage really spoke to my soul:<br /></p><p>"<strong><em>Yet I still dare to hope when I remember this:<br /></em></strong></p><p><strong><em>The faithful love of the Lord never ends! </em></strong>His mercies never cease.<br/>Great is his faithfulness; <strong><em>his mercies begin afresh each morning</em></strong>.<br/>I say to myself, 'The Lord is my inheritance; <strong><em>therefore, I will hope in him!</em></strong>'<br /></p><p>The Lord is good to those who depend on him, to those who search for him.<br/><strong><em>So it is good to wait quietly for salvation from the Lord.</em></strong><br/>And it is good for people to submit at an early age to the yoke of his discipline:<br /></p><p><strong><em>Let them sit alone in silence</em></strong> beneath the Lord's demands.<br/>Let them lie face down in the dust, <strong><em>for there may be hope at last.<br/></em></strong>Let them turn the other cheek to those who strike them and accept the insults of their enemies.<br /></p><p><strong><em>For no one is abandoned by the Lord forever.</em></strong><br/>Though he brings grief, he also shows compassion because of the greatness of his unfailing love.<br/>For he does not enjoy hurting people or causing them sorrow."<br /></p><p>I couldn't help feeling these are promises spoken directly over my life. I believed them all as they washed over me like the fresh water of a waterfall, cleansing the wounds and washing off the dirt of the journey. There is hope! I can still dare to hope, knowing God is faithful, knowing His mercies begin afresh every morning.<br /></p><p>Then I randomly started reading 1 Peter. Don't know why, I just felt like reading 1 Peter.<br /></p><p><span style='color:black'>"<strong><em>I am writing to God's chosen people who are living as foreigners</em></strong>..." It's easy for me to skip over introductions and salutations and just get to the meat of the writing, but this time the salutation really hit me—it's written to me! I'm one of God's chosen people living as a foreigner in a strange land.<br /></span></p><p><span style='color:black'>"<strong><em>God the Father</em></strong> knew you and <strong><em>chose you</em></strong> long ago, and his Spirit has made you holy. As a result, <strong><em>you have obeyed him</em></strong> and have been cleansed by the blood of Jesus Christ." These verses made me feel personally commissioned, and also said that I obeyed. I didn't miss my calling. I was specifically chosen for this place, this work, these people. I am walking in His will for me after all.<br /></span></p><p><span style='color:black'>"So be truly glad. <strong><em>There is wonderful joy ahead, even though you have to endure many trials for a little while.</em></strong> These trials will show that your faith is genuine. It is being tested as fire tests and purifies gold—though <strong><em>your faith is far more precious than mere gold.</em></strong> So when your faith remains strong through many trials, it will bring you much praise and glory and honor on the day when Jesus Christ is revealed to the whole world." Again, I felt like the whole book was written and preserved through the centuries just so I could read it this day and draw hope from it. There is a reason and a purpose for my trials. I <strong>need</strong> them to test and deepen my faith!<br /></span></p><p><span style='color:black'> "<strong><em>You love him even though you have never seen him. Though you do not see him now, you trust him; </em></strong>and you rejoice with a glorious, inexpressible joy." This is a tough ministry to be a part of for someone who has never experienced earth-shattering, powerful encounters with God (someone like me). During our mission school, people were having visions of heaven, seeing God face to face, seeing angels, getting knocked out flat by the Holy Spirit, and after a while of experiencing <em>nothing</em> personally I started wondering if I was even saved! This verse has kept me going. I have never experienced God in the strong ways other people seem to be able to, but I still trust Him. I guess somehow that makes my faith more blind and more precious to Him, even though I honestly would rather have the visions and experiences. Even though I don't see Him, He still sees me and cares that I keep going in spite of the lack of stupendous experiences. <br /></span></p><p>Jon suggested I go through my mission school notes, so I did. I was hit afresh with a message of Heidi Baker about favor. We may think we want favor from God, but do we really know what we're asking for?<br /></p><p><span style='color:black'>"Gabriel appeared to her and said, '<strong><em>Greetings, favored woman!</em></strong> The Lord is with you!' Confused and disturbed, Mary tried to think what the angel could mean. 'Don't be afraid, Mary,' the angel told her, '<strong><em>for you have found favor with God</em></strong>! You will conceive and give birth to a son, and you will name him Jesus. He will be very great and will be called the Son of the Most High. The Lord God will give him the throne of his ancestor David. And he will reign over Israel forever; his Kingdom will never end!'"<br /></span></p><p><span style='color:black'>Mary found favor with God, and it turned her life upside-down. I taught in a high school in the States for a while and had at least 1-2 pregnant girls in each class—it's not a big deal to us anymore to see girls pregnant out of wedlock, but in Mary's time it was the biggest shame imaginable. She could have been stoned for promiscuity and adultery. And it wasn't like she could hide her "favor" either—it was obvious to the world, humiliating, embarrassing, and shaming. And what a story to tell people! "No really, God made me pregnant! I'm still a virgin!" Right, Mary. If they had mental institutions back then they may have considered admitting her to one.<br /></span></p><p><span style='color:black'>Not only that, but think of the responsibility to carry the Son of God. Ever since man sinned, God promised a Savior, a Messiah to set people free from the power of the mess they got themselves into. Now finally, thousands of years and hundreds of prophecies later, little Mary is chosen to be the channel to bring this Messiah into the world. I was feeling under-qualified and inadequate for my work here, I wonder how she felt? The favor brings a huge responsibility. And a choice. Mary could have said "no", she could have refused at the start or given up partway through. So many people are given a seed of favor, but the process of carrying that favor before the world can see the fruit is beyond difficult. Many people miscarry or abort it before seeing it through to fruition.<br /></span></p><p><span style='color:black'>For me, God has shown me favor by placing me to be His hands, feet, heart, and love to 30 orphans in Africa. He promised to take care of the fatherless, and He chose me to be the channel through which He cares for these precious ones. It's hard, some days harder than I want to deal with—the kids have emotional scars that show themselves either in lashing out and fighting or clamming up and hiding, most of them are not saved, they have serious issues with disrespect, disobedience, dishonesty, they are demanding and rude, they have so many needs that I just feel like I can't meet, and some days I'm ready to abort this favor, pack up my bags, and go home. How can little me take on this huge responsibility? I dream of a beautiful children's center, where the kids love God and voluntarily spend time in prayer and worship, they get along with each other and put each other first, they share and are not selfish, they take on responsibilities and follow through without expecting payment, they speak the truth all the time, they pray for the sick and see miracles, they grow up to be powerful men of God and change the world around them, they are well prepared for life and are equipped to live their dreams to be car mechanics or doctors… It just seems like a long way to go to get to that point.<br /></span></p><p><span style='color:black'>It's a matter of carrying the favor, and not miscarrying before all can see the fruit. I just need to live in <strong><em>hope</em></strong> of seeing God's mercies new every morning, <strong><em>faith</em></strong> that He has called me and will make me adequate for the work, and accept the <strong><em>favor</em></strong> along with the promise it brings, no matter how difficult the journey.</span></p></span>Carlahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08702744196506375883noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-200684410049348835.post-81671969336165376732009-01-24T11:41:00.000-08:002009-01-24T11:46:55.228-08:00Creativity and God<div>Invariably, whenever we would speak at a church, someone would come up to us and say, "Have you heard of the ____ method?" They would go on to tell us about how many people are being saved using that method... Lol, can you think of anything more American than a process for the Gospel?</div><div><br /></div><div>Before He was anything else to mankind, God was Creator. He created everything we see, yet people think He would be willing to use the same method over and over again to save people? That would be so boring for Him - 2000 years of the same thing...</div><div><br /></div><div>As it is, I've never run into two people who were saved the same way. Even here in Africa, where mass conversions are all the rage, each person has a different story about what brought them to the point of raising their hands. It's important to realize this so we don't judge others. Few Christians have problems with miracles happening in Africa; many more have problems with miracles in their backyard. If we think the only way God is going to reach America is through many years of Sunday School meetings and youth camps, we will never be looking at how God wants to use us each day. Similarly, if we think the Gospel can only go out through the Romans Road or the Spiritual Laws, we'll be flat out missing countless opportunities to show love, bring hope, or demonstrate God's power. And if we're always looking to demonstrate God's power, we can miss the smaller times He just wants to show his grace, mercy, or love.</div>Jonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00067692361302930474noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-200684410049348835.post-24325101525795737262009-01-24T11:27:00.000-08:002009-01-24T11:41:34.384-08:00Grace<div>I just wanted to talk about grace for a second because God's been teaching me a lot about it. Not grace for me, but grace for others. For us in the church, I think we understand grace when it applies to us but not to others.</div><div><br /></div><div>Grace is God's love for you. It's why Jesus died for us. It's forgiveness when you've messed up. It's also when you save up your money for 5 years to buy a car and someone gives your neighbor a Lexus for free. Matthew 20:1-16 - the Parable of the Vineyard Workers:</div><div><br /></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" ;font-family:'Charis SIL';"><span id="en-NIRV-23792" class="sup" style=" font-weight: bold; vertical-align: text-top; font-size:0.65em;">1</span> "The kingdom of heaven is like a man who owned land. He went out early in the morning to hire people to work in his vineyard. <span id="en-NIRV-23793" class="sup" style=" font-weight: bold; vertical-align: text-top; font-size:0.65em;">2</span> He agreed to give them the usual pay for a day's work. Then he sent them into his vineyard.<p> <span id="en-NIRV-23794" class="sup" style=" font-weight: bold; vertical-align: text-top; font-size:0.65em;">3</span> "About nine o'clock in the morning he went out again. He saw others standing in the market place doing nothing. <span id="en-NIRV-23795" class="sup" style=" font-weight: bold; vertical-align: text-top; font-size:0.65em;">4</span> He told them, 'You also go and work in my vineyard. I'll pay you what is right.' <span id="en-NIRV-23796" class="sup" style=" font-weight: bold; vertical-align: text-top; font-size:0.65em;">5</span> So they went.</p><p> "He went out again about noon and at three o'clock and did the same thing. <span id="en-NIRV-23797" class="sup" style=" font-weight: bold; vertical-align: text-top; font-size:0.65em;">6</span> About five o'clock he went out and found still others standing around. He asked them, 'Why have you been standing here all day long doing nothing?'</p><p> <span id="en-NIRV-23798" class="sup" style=" font-weight: bold; vertical-align: text-top; font-size:0.65em;">7</span> " 'Because no one has hired us,' they answered.</p><p> "He said to them, 'You also go and work in my vineyard.'</p><p> <span id="en-NIRV-23799" class="sup" style=" font-weight: bold; vertical-align: text-top; font-size:0.65em;">8</span> "When evening came, the owner of the vineyard spoke to the person who was in charge of the workers. He said, 'Call the workers and give them their pay. Begin with the last ones I hired. Then go on to the first ones.'</p><p> <span id="en-NIRV-23800" class="sup" style=" font-weight: bold; vertical-align: text-top; font-size:0.65em;">9</span> "The workers who were hired about five o'clock came. Each received the usual day's pay. <span id="en-NIRV-23801" class="sup" style=" font-weight: bold; vertical-align: text-top; font-size:0.65em;">10</span> So when those who were hired first came, they expected to receive more. But each of them also received the usual day's pay.</p><p> <span id="en-NIRV-23802" class="sup" style=" font-weight: bold; vertical-align: text-top; font-size:0.65em;">11</span> "When they received it, they began to complain about the owner. <span id="en-NIRV-23803" class="sup" style=" font-weight: bold; vertical-align: text-top; font-size:0.65em;">12</span> 'These people who were hired last worked only one hour,' they said. 'You have paid them the same as us. We have done most of the work and have been in the hot sun all day.'</p><p> <span id="en-NIRV-23804" class="sup" style=" font-weight: bold; vertical-align: text-top; font-size:0.65em;">13</span> "The owner answered one of them. 'Friend,' he said, 'I'm being fair to you. Didn't you agree to work for the usual day's pay? <span id="en-NIRV-23805" class="sup" style=" font-weight: bold; vertical-align: text-top; font-size:0.65em;">14</span> Take your money and go. I want to give the ones I hired last the same pay I gave you. <span id="en-NIRV-23806" class="sup" style=" font-weight: bold; vertical-align: text-top; font-size:0.65em;">15</span> Don't I have the right to do what I want with my own money? Do you feel cheated because I gave so freely to the others?'</p><p> <span id="en-NIRV-23807" class="sup" style=" font-weight: bold; vertical-align: text-top; font-size:0.65em;">16</span> "So those who are last will be first. And those who are first will be last."</p></span></div><div>I think this is one of the best places in the Bible to look to understand grace, because it's talking about grace for others. If Eminem, your gay hairdresser, a child rapist, or an islamic terrorist accepts Jesus as their savior right before they die, they will be your neighbors in heaven. They may even get the same reward you do, according to the parable! Think about it - a missionary who gives their entire life to Jesus could get the exact same reward as Hitler if Hitler turned from his ways. That's Grace! Ugly, revolting, raw grace, at least as far as our flesh is concerned!</div><div><br /></div><div>When faced with this grace, I think most of us would react like Jonah or the son who was loyal to his father when the prodigal son returns, "It's not fair!" And just like Jonah, we won't be able to be the workers God wants us to be unless we understand that grace.</div><div><br /></div><div>I think it was the same with the Pharisees. They were just fine with sitting back and judging sinners, and were disgusted with the fact that Jesus chose to make his best friends out of tax collectors, sinners, and petty fishermen. I think most of us are afraid to admit how much Pharisee we have in us. When was the last time you actively sought to spend time with a beggar? When was the last time you reached out in compassion to the person at work that everyone else hates? Grace is a crazy thing. It can even touch the lives of Pharisees.</div><div><br /></div><div>It's the same thing here, for us. Beaten, broken kids are easy to reach out to. Not so much with the person who just charged you double for a ride because you're white, the person who just hit on your wife, or the person who just stole money from you. But if it were easy, we wouldn't need God's love to do it. Please be praying for us that we can even reach out to the people who we don't want to help, and that we can extend grace to the people don't think deserve it. God Bless! And feel free to add your own comments etc about grace!</div>Jonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00067692361302930474noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-200684410049348835.post-88679235875993545372009-01-21T11:02:00.001-08:002009-01-21T11:03:13.789-08:00No pretending allowed<span xmlns=""><p>"Don't just pretend to love others. Really love them" (Romans 12:9, NLT).<br /></p><p>This is me being gut-honest. You wouldn't believe how hard that is sometimes, to <em>really</em> love people and not just pretend. As much as I want to think I have the mind and attitude of Christ, as much as I like to think I view all others as exactly equal to myself, as much as I want this to be so, I find myself slipping unintentionally into feelings of superiority. From my affluent and well-educated background (compared to 95% of the people in Mozambique), I sometimes feel entitled and, well, better than the people around me. It doesn't help that they perpetuate the feeling by acting like inferiors. It doesn't help that we keep everything under lock and key with the assumption that if they have the chance to steal anything, they will. It doesn't help that most of the time you have to assume they are lying to you to get what they want. It is a challenge to stoop down and treat someone as an equal who is coming to you as a servant.<br /></p><p>I always had a closet and dresser full of clothes growing up—they are lucky if they have more than one outfit. I always had food on the table in abundance and variety—they are considered fortunate if they have one meal a day, and likely the same meal every time. I had loving parents and endless opportunities stretched before me—most of them are abused, neglected, and without any hope for their futures. I have an Associate's degree in Biblical studies and a Bachelor's in English and Education—most of them can't even read and write. I have always grown up with a computer in the house—most of them don't even have electricity, much less anything that would run on it. But does any of this matter in eternity?<br /></p><p>When I envision myself stripped down to my raw, naked soul, I realize I am no better than them. The child with the boated belly, the woman with AIDS, the man with no legs, the blind beggar, the toothless hunchback… we each amount to one soul. And I am called to love—really love—each and every one of them.<br /></p><p>It's easy to pretend to love. It's easy to give a handout of money. It's easy to show pity but not compassion. It's hard to really love them. To get past all of the cultural, financial, racial, linguistic, and educational differences. To sit and learn from them, let them be the superior teacher and me the inferior student as I learn the language so we can even communicate, learn the culture so I can honor and not offend them, learn how to dress, learn how to eat, learn how to go to the bathroom. To become weak as they are weak (1 Corinthians 9:22) to win their hearts over to a God who came down to identify with our weaknesses (Philippians 2:5-8).<br /></p><p>I'm learning, slowly, to view each life as though through the eyes of the Father. He really does love them all as much as He loves me, if not more since they are so given to reckless, wholehearted abandonment to Him when they hear and accept the gospel. Sometimes I feel like my worship is so apathetic and stale compared to their lively, jubilant dancing. My sacrifice is nothing compared to the ones who have been stoned and hacked with machetes for preaching. My faith is so weak compared to the ones who sit and pray next to a dead man for four days until he finally starts to breathe again. God really loves the Africans. So why is it so hard for me?<br /></p><p>I'm learning to love—really love—the African people as much as I love my husband, my family, and my dearest friends. I'm learning to value them far above what other people of my wretched race have done in the past—and learning to value them even above myself. When I am willing to forgive all injustices of corruption and people taking advantage of us, when I am willing to lay down my life and die for the sake of one person, any person, then I will understand the mind and heart of Christ who forgave us when we were still His enemies, and died for us even though we deserved His suffering. </p><p>~Carla</p></span>Carlahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08702744196506375883noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-200684410049348835.post-61070787593123628592008-12-30T08:22:00.001-08:002008-12-30T08:30:48.376-08:00We Got Set UpDid I mention God is totally awesome? Out of all the churches helping out in Africa, one 30 minutes away from us (in Salem, MO) works with a church in the same city that we're in! Of the around 20 missionaries working in our area from around the world, some happen to live right next door!<div><br /></div><div>That has actually happened to us before - of the 35 missionaries we met in Pemba, one happened to live less than 10 minutes away from my parents! She was around my mom's age, painted as a hobby, just like my mom, and had an interest in missions, also just like my mom - they're really good friends now. This came at a time where my mom really needed some more Christian friends. Truly, God is alive and powerful, and interested in our lives!</div>Jonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00067692361302930474noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-200684410049348835.post-11045832139142062962008-12-30T06:45:00.000-08:002008-12-30T07:34:22.198-08:00The Good NewsFor anyone who doesn't think the messages of mercy, grace and forgiveness are applicable to this generation, check out the music video for Linkin Park's What I've Done - <a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wjBZh-yRmkc">http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wjBZh-yRmkc</a>. The song was a major hit last year, and the music video made me cry when I stumbled across it on You Tube. Wow... Every once in a while, there is a secular song that comes out that is just gut-honest and I love them - there is nothing else that makes me more aware of the world's need for the gospel than when you hear non-Christians crying out for it. This wasn't just the cry raised by a single band - evidently, it touched a deep cord within many people and ended up topping the charts for weeks. The You Tube video was one of the 50 most popular videos ever on that site...<div><br /></div><div>So why aren't all these people flocking to churches? Maybe we've got the wrong message... Maybe the Good News isn't that you can pray a prayer and get into heaven - maybe the Good News is that you can exchange your life for a new one. Maybe the Good News is that we <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">can</span> change because of what Jesus has done! I think that by making the gospel as easy as possible for people and throwing out the "let the dead bury the dead. You follow me" aspect and dieing to your old self (Gal 2:20, 2 Tim 2:11), we've thrown away much of the power of the gospel as well.</div><div><br /></div><div>Don't get me wrong - the prayer is absolutely true. All you need to do is repent and accept Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior to be let into heaven. But accepting Jesus as your Lord means giving up your old life and following Him. So many people have prayed the prayer - very few people in America have yet to at least try. But then they get disillusioned because their life wasn't changed. Power doesn't come from a prayer - it comes from Jesus, who needs your permission to change your life into something else. Every one of the missionaries in the Philippines had two parts to their testimony - when they prayed the prayer, and when they gave their life to Jesus, most of the time with many years in between.</div><div><br /></div><div>If you want more proof, look up the greek word "sozo" - in the New Testament, it's translated as "to save, to heal, to be made whole"... In short, it's the transfering of a person from the kingdom of Satan and everything about that life to the kingdom of Jesus (Col 1:13). Over 80% of Americans think they are going to heaven - the message of heaven isn't nearly as good of news (or so people think) as it was 20 years ago. Peace, a life without stress, something real and not fleeting, a way to change, true love - these are the things my generation seeks after...</div>Jonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00067692361302930474noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-200684410049348835.post-58471099188606933552008-12-18T06:43:00.001-08:002008-12-18T06:45:19.038-08:00WelcomeHey Everyone,<div><br /></div><div>We've started this blog as somewhere that we can talk about our ideas, struggles, and things that God's been teaching us - things that just didn't quite feel like they belonged in our Updates. This website is linked to our other blog and website - just click a link on the left side. God bless and we hope you enjoy!</div><div> - Jon and Carla</div>Jonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00067692361302930474noreply@blogger.com0